fireworks - chaos68
2001-09-28 - 12:29 a.m.
I'm baaack. Looking at the guestbook. I guess I could start with Matt. Except I'm sure that I've begun with him before. Except now his pages are green =) [ okay, the game was diarylandsux - histamine ] (It is incredibly cool have a referee write in the gb.)
Today was an incredible game. The majority of links led to great writers. I must try to continue this trend. First, began to aristeas but it was a deadend. So I reloaded the members area a page and fireworks was up. The game was on.
fireworks :: phonakins :: lauryn :: rushlight :: itylus :: chaos68
aristeas (deadend)
(I will say it again: I hate that webrings are loaded by .js and takes just the bittest longer to load on my 28.8k modem. I hate waiting. And then I have to wait for the table to be parsed.) Only a total of 4 entries. I am a sucker for verse. For prose.
2001-09-26 - 9:06 a.m.
I thought i made you happy
You almost made me smile...
Do you realize that the closer you get to me, the further I really am from you?
fireworks
(I think there may be an error in the table code. Have to side-scroll to read the entry; navigation images at bottom-left corner, waaay below the entry)
There is a lot to read, if you are so inclined, beginning from Dec 2000. I would, but I'm not inclined towards the bad display. She is a soul with sensitivity and mucho to share. Sleepless in Sydney, and occasionally in Malaysia. The following quote is an extract from the last essay of her three on the 11/9 topic:
Wednesday, Sept. 12, 2001 12:22 p.m.
My mom called us up about 20 minutes after the first tower collapsed yesterday night. They've closed down the twin towers - The Petronas Towers in Malaysia.
phonakins (locked)
lauryn
One node in an amazing site. I wish that I could be as organised. Definitely check her out. Self-aware and therefore intelligent (note: intelligent != mature). Lengthy entries discussing each aspect of the topic. Filipino and therefore exotic-ness pours out her ears.
2001-09-24
She sounds worse than a market vendor! People who aren't market vendors who talk like market vendors are one of my pet peeves.
rushlight (blank)
itylus
In the middle of his thesis. Could be somewhere in the middle of Australia. Angst, but surviving. Living. Some incredible insights, but mainly about hisself. This one is focused on "content over display". Much worth it.
2001-09-23 - 11:53 p.m.
Anyway, that got me thinking about how sometimes people say, "If you believe in yourself, you can acheive anything." And I always think, whenever I hear somebody say that, "You're a sap".
... But, if you turn the phrase around a little, it does make some sense. If, instead of acheiving anything, you think, what can you acheive if you don't believe in yourself? Nothing.
... I know, even though I've got a pretty big streak of self-hatred running through me, I do still believe in myself, just a bit, because of a few other people who believed in me, who were good to me when I was small and had nothing to offer in return. I was lucky, that's all, that's all that makes me special. I just wish more people were as lucky as I was.
Ah ha, the Sixth link. chaos68
A diary of verses, so far as I can tell. Erratic with regards to the quality, but the good ones are good and the bad ones are mediocre. Yeah, I'm pissed - stars and stripes baby is good:
Friday, Sept. 14, 2001 - 9:45 a.m.
[ extract ]
Carving designs
with a dementia sublime
injected with hate
say good-bye to benign
Landscaped in ash
and wreckage asunder
lives changed forever
by terrorist thunder
even as I do not agree with the sentiment. Today's lacks an anchoring reference for it to make any sense whatsoever:
Thursday, Sept. 27, 2001 - 1:07 a.m.
Looking for a watermark
and a level of satiation
I want to be steeped in possession
to know that saturation
Perhaps my gills are wasted
and in your eyes an abomination
Still my webbed digits cry out
needing to navigate you, my salvation
Music :: (only in my head) Garth Brooks "God's greatest gift / is unanswered prayers." So very very sad.
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